For my Senior Thesis exhibition I chose to create a zine reflecting on my childhood and growth through my experiences in college. The zine I created, Deadheading Flowers, is one of the most intimate pieces of art I have created and therefore one of my favorite.

Discovering the true sense of ones self is an ever elusive and turbulent journey. It changes by the day and effects how you present yourself to the world. The desire to feel understood, heard, and just seen by others is part of the struggles of the human experience. The pressures and confines the mind absorbs can greatly effect how one expresses themself. 

I want to have an intimate moment with the viewer, in which I share the most fragile parts of myself in hopes that they too can relate and empathize with me. It is a struggle that we all go through; the changes from childhood to adolescence to adulthood can take a toll on the human spirit.

Self-portraiture is my preferred method of photography as I can create an image that is so intimate and personal. I take all my photographs alone, with my camera on a tripod and remote in hand as it is such a private moment for me. My most profound photographs came from times when I was feeling very intense, deep emotions. Times when I was alone and processing my thoughts and feelings. Art has become a part of my coping system.

The images I have chosen to include reflect the intense emotions and inner turmoil that come with growing up. Themes of relationships, loss, and isolation are the driving factors behind my work. This body of work is an incredibly raw depiction of my feelings and fears that I rarely show to people. In creating this work I have learned to heal myself and bring closure to this most recent chapter of my life.

Check out the Deadheading Flowers Flipbook